Questions .....

How would one react when you care abit more and show concern ?? Apart from deeds .... Would you ask a little more then usual .... like ask str8 fm the heart ??? or beat around the bush ??

I'm baffled by this someone telling me I'm been asking too much..... till there's no personal space left !! Haa...ha... I'm juz lost for words !!!

Funnie how ppl react !!! I always tot when ppl meet they r frenz, when they grow closer, they r close frenz .... so w/ closer frenz there shld be no barrier !!! there's nothing to hide.... U juz bare all & come to terms w/ one another !!!

When frenz begin to build closer bonds, their friendship strengthen ... and will be able to weather a bit more then normal acquaintance. The threshold of tolerance grows & becomes higher naturally !! U begin to hv a deeper understanding of one another....... Thatz when U r able to ask a lil' more than normal .... talk a lil' further .... express yrself more !!!

But ... strangely, today I've learn itz not like tat !! Haa... haa.. Search me ?? I'm both stunned & lost !!! I really dunno how to treat ppl anymore !!!

Should I con't to be as warm as ever .... love them all despite watever they say ..... or be bothered & turn cold !!! Be Frozen !!!

I'm really lost !!! Watever happened hv indeed left me broken in some ways !!! I wonder .... will it be better if I choose to turn cold !! Oops ... I meant frozen !! Urm... I think I'm capable of it .... Maybe itz a new season then .... I shld after all be S.B.C !!! Simply Bo Chap !!! If it makes u happier .... Wat is sacrificing a lil of myself !!! I still find it so strange !!! Anyway... why bother when ppl dun appreciate & take yr kindness for granted !!

So juz learn to be cold fm now on .....

Allow me to live up to me being a nice nice gal, but can be nasty at times !! Be Cold !!! Be frozen !!

Itz really saddening to know, I'm really affected !! Else this blog will not even surface !!!

..... the Drive of My life........Yours Truly !!!

I have stopped writing here for almost a month after I have been discovered !! Hmm... all good things muz come to a good end as well.

Speaking of good end, I have realized it's the end of September, where I have to end some things as well .... Hmm... a little sad that I need to wrap it, but I reckon itz the best for all... I've set a target .... though I didn't meet itz mark .... but I'm glad I did well ... & got some results out of it, tho may not have been as expected.
I've learned to appreciate it .... every part of it !! The ups especially and the downs as well..... I like it so much ....
When it 1st started, I prayed & ask God to grant it if it's HIS will. Now I know lor ... It was my will. hee...hee...

Giving up is easier said than done, itz also tough to back off now.... I dun really want to actually, but a dateline is a dateline.
I trully thank all those who were by my side while I was at it .... thank you for bearing with me ... listening to me .... and all the encouragement and truth that made me see this reality and coming to terms with it. I'll like to end it the way it is now tat everything will still remain as per normal, juz minus the expectations. I sad lor ... really I am .... Life goes on .... Let go gal !!

Actually I have done alot .. so much that I thru it I found out we're worlds apart !!! Will the two different worlds ever cross path ?? I really dunno !!! Do I wish it will ?? I think so !!! Haa... haaa.... Sounds so nonsensical, but I guess only those who heard me before knows what I'm driving at. Am I sad ?? Yes I am .... I really am !! but being sad is better than being hurt !! ya
Life goes on .... Move on ... Move off !!!

Funnie .... The process is like a kite, you long so much to fly a kite, U think itz so fun to .... but only when u touch it, U realize it aint easy baby !! You need skills and lots of practice !!
U need to know when to pull the string ?? at what length ?? when to release ..... then let it fly ...
while itz up in the SKY !! U need to know when to pull it to let it fly up there for the longest time .... when to release so that it will keep flying .... even when pulling it ... can't pull too hard coz the string mite juz snap and it will lose control !! It may juz land above some trees or may be swept away .... Will U still go around looking for it ?? or juz let it be like a trash in your life and let it vanish !! For me ??? I think I'd like to discover a way of hanging on to it, learn the correct way !! The painless way !! The Happy way !!

Thats life !!! Thats love !! Thats U !!

I've chose to give up the drive of my life !!! Do it the healthy way !!! Move on ... Move Off !!!
Only to discover the true desire of my heart !!!