5.30pm - I walked out of the office rushing to meet TT n Lynn !!! Had drinks w/ them n was funnie managed to plan w/ Lynn a lil' of TT's hen party !!! Can lah .... possible !!! hee... hee... then I left them in an hour's time .... for a birthday dinner.
I arrived dinner spot !!! Was so early, so I waited for them to come. Tonite's dinner was the most trying dinner I ever had .... I wldnt appear if it hadnt been for Tammi's Birthday !!! I hv never in my life been so mad with someone in such a short length of time ..... haa... haa... I was told tat it cld be coz I held on to some feelings over this person tatz why I minded so much wat happend !!! Well .... I dun really need to explain further .... if there was any feelings ??? I guess it would hv been in the past .... coz for now I am totally aware & am filled w/ rage !!! Oh ... God forgive me !!! I am but human !!! Watever feelings there were .... muz hv been washed off by this best moment !!! Wat was only a trival matter ... had been magnified many times itz original size and things will never ever be the same !!!
So as they say .... time reveals a person's true character is indeed true !!! things like calling me names and being so rude can actually appear on yr msn tagline !! wow ... tat really amazes me !!! how cld someone of yr status produce something so unedifying as this !!! This is really a major discredit to wat u hv built over the years I hv known U .... It all juz went crash.... overnite !!! The respect is lost ..... the friendship is at stake !!! a very fragile masterpiece now.
I for sure cannot get over this entire incident and will not wanna make any more effort in doing any more for u .... I hv once again turned cold !!! Frozen !!! The friendship flame no longer exist !!! and there will never be flames again !!! I was this close to saying I really hate u ..... but I wun ... coz it will only make me suffer more .....
The best method is to treat u like a piece of glass ....
It is with regrets tat there no longer will the existence of this friendship. Wat took months to build has collapsed over a trival matter !! & if tatz wat u want .... U got it ....
It was never my intention to give up ..... but this time it really did sliced thru me .... it is so painful ..... I hv shed tears of anger and tears of hurt !!! Today all this will be History !!! Sealed in a time zone .... I dunno how I am ever gog to grow in yr leadership .... but for God's sake I'll hang on .....
It can only take a miracle to mend it back !!! Will God grant this miracle to happen ?? I wonder !!!
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